That discouraging word

Remember that old cowboy song Home on the Range? "Where never is heard a discouraging word, and the sky is not cloudy all day." or something like that. What is a "discouraging word" anyway? I think of it like a bad attitude. And I have a bad attitude about discipline - that's my discouraging word.

These days I'm trying to learn how to do most of the things I want to do while still finishing projects, i.e. learn discipline. I'm a person who loves to start a lot of things at once, and then lets them hang over my head until I finish them much later. I do eventually finish them, but planning and starting is the fun part. Finishing, not so much.

This reminds me of a former relationship I was in, where my partner liked to tear apart things in the house, starting a renewal project, and then let it sit unfinished forever. Drove me crazy, and now I'm doing much the same thing.

With all this in mind, I've established a time for writing. Every day. Stephen King does it and look at his production. If I can do even a fraction of what he does, I'll be way ahead of where I am now, which is madly trying to finish something at the last minute to submit to my writing group once every two months. Writing is one of the things I want to do, and it's never really finished of its own accord. So if I just think about it, wish I had time to do it, and never put any words down, I've failed.

I'm writing an hour every day, 11:00 a.m. to noon. At this moment, I'm not worried about what I'm writing, as long as I write something. So far it's been three days, and twenty one days makes a habit. Wish me discipline.